my zodiac sign May 17, 2010

I think the bulk of what I read about the Pisces sign is false. However, every once in awhile, I’ll read something and it does ring true. Here are some things I’ve noticed more often than not, apply to me:

• Pisceans are space cadets – they daydream a lot and are constantly in their heads. I think I’m in my head about 70% of the time and I’m cool with it. HAHA
• I am not great with money; I love to spend and I’m pretty lax about spending habits
• I’m quick to run from committing myself to long-term things
• I’m restless; I love to travel and when I’m not traveling, I’m always thinking about it
• I like my freedom to roam and explore without any restrictions. I hate being boxed in, tracked, followed, obligated to do things I don’t want to do
• I like being protected and taken care of by loved ones
• I’m a romantic
• I’m into creative pursuits

I’m sure there’s more 🙂 I just don’t think I’m terribly unstable, have an alcoholic problem, have feet issues, or are into safe love-related pursuits. There’s a lot of crap out there, man!

bleeeeeeeeeep. April 20, 2010

Is it me or are the weekends getting shorter??

Lately I feel like the work’s been piling up, the work days are shorter (so I get less done!) and the weekends just seem to fly by. *sigh*

I hope this passes.

On a brighter note, I took my first shot at tempeh “chicken” salad. It’s AMAZING. Currently reading Skinny Bitch in the Kitch by Rory Freedman & Kim Barnouin and it’s great. Love all of the hilarious side notes! Will post photos tomorrow 🙂

happy cloud April 14, 2010

It’s been ages since I’ve been moved this much by a song. My chest swells to mimic the sounds of the instruments and tries to sing words that aren’t there. Talib Kweli’s Love Speakeasy is my new favorite. I really need to reach to the ends of funk and jazz to see where I can listen to more great music like this.

I picked up a book this weekend that I haven’t been able to put down since I turned the first page. It’s Kenji Jasper’s The House on Childress Street. I’m almost finished with it and it’s only Tuesday. I look down and my eyes fly through sentences and over page after page until it’s time for me to transfer buses or get up and walk the five minutes to work from the train station. I’m enveloped in the world of the author, an escape from my own life, and it feels beautiful. I feel connected.

Spent some time with my best friend this weekend, doing the low-key movies-at-her-place thing. I love to dance, I love to go out and try new restaurants, to explore, but there’s also a part of me that will always find joy in being at home, curled up in bed, carefree, in the company of someone I love. I wanted to lie forever, and drift off to sleep for days, but sadly it was Sunday – which means the next day is Monday and another work week starting.

Lately I’ve been feeling really happy, really good, like I’m on uppers or something. Which is strange because for the past week or so, I was feeling really down. I feel like my senses are heightened this week, like my food tastes better, the smells are more pleasant, and things look more attractive – colors brighter, music louder and more appealing. I can’t explain it. I feel like I’m floating on a cloud.

{Below: Young girls at the Songkhran Festival this weekend for Thai / Cambodian / Laotian New Years}

ooh la la la April 4, 2010

there are two types of relationships in life, people: one where the other person understands you inherently and one where you both constantly have to work at it to get on the same level.

the question is…which one is more satisfying to you?

feist – lonely lonely March 21, 2010

I feel too scared to do what I want and instead, fall into what is comfortable that makes me unhappy. I realized today that in a way, it’s terribly sad, but in another way, I feel like I can identify with some of the films I’ve seen, songs I’ve heard, and feel connected to other people – in a twisted way. How long should I let myself feel this lonely?

I wish there was a barometer for, on average, how long people should let themselves feel this way before it gets unhealthy and self-destructive. I can think of ways to be happier, but I don’t want to rush anything. Or maybe, rushing is something I should do more of? Maybe THAT’S what I’m missing…spontaneity. Who knew I would be this humdrum at 23. Ugh. I’m frustrated with myself.

I’m scared about doing something if I haven’t completely thought it through. Then again, who really keeps track of your mistakes that closely? I haven’t made any huge ones in awhile, shouldn’t I allot myself one or two every few years? The next time I get the impulse, I’m just going to do it. I’m just going to do what a friend of mine says she’s so quick to do.

I’m going to make the best mistake ever. Stay tuned, folks.

escape plan December 28, 2009

I like that most of my friends are at that same stage in their lives where like me, they would like to leave their parents’ homes as soon as possible.

It means we’re growing up! 🙂 *tear (haha)

puzzle December 26, 2009

It bothers me when I can’t figure people out. I like to know exactly where I stand with people and not being sure of where that is, irks me. When one day the other person seems warm and the next they’re…well, not so warm. It’s fascinating and repelling all at the same time. When people are like that, I often wonder what it was that happened to them that made them act that way. Lack of trust? Are they continuously preoccupied with something else? Are they too afraid of being themselves that they’re constantly reconfiguring their relationships?

Maybe I’m thinking too much…

new project December 25, 2009

I’ve started a new illustration project. I’d like to separately begin a recipe book / vegan how-to guide for young children as well. I’m still hashing out what it is exactly I’d like to include, how I’ll format it, etc. Here’s a project that will be much more short-term. I’m thinking color blocks and simple ink drawings at the moment.

I’d like to start something on a larger scale as well, but I want to plan it out before starting and failing to complete yet another canvas.

comparison of quizzes

I use to take these text quizzes ALL THE TIME, back in the day out of sheer boredom. I do them occasionally now, especially if I’m interested in spotting anything particularly different in ones filled out many years apart. Below is a standard one; this comparison is one made over the course of four years. Man, how time flies.

year 2004

WHAT I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS
1. some money (i’m not gonna lie!!)
2. a unicorn
3. brown suede-y converses
4. a baby sister
5. green heels (pointed toe please)
6. bath salts
7. a kidrobot!!
8. a trip away from home
9. a new, cute, guy friend
10. rachael ray’s $40 a day book

TWELVE GREAT MOVIES
1. Rear Window
2. Paper Moon
3. Frida
4. Singin in the Rain
5. My Girl
6. Ghostworld
7. Catch Me If You Can
8. Home Alone
9. Imitation of Life
10. Sixth Sense
11. The Breakfast Club
12. Dilwale Dilhunia Le Jayenge (best one ever!!)

ELEVEN GOOD BANDS/ARTISTS
1. Amerie
2. Amel Larrieux
3. Alicia Keys
4. Goo Goo Dolls
5. Beyonce
6. JAY-Z!!!!
7. Dido
8. MARIAH CAREY
9. Ella Fitzgerald
10. Frank Sinatra
11. Lauryn Hill

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOU
1. I’m a size 3 in jeans, but in skirts I’m a 4
2. I hate when things are unoriginal
3. I’m addicted to buying stuff
4. I’m an artist
5. Food = GOOD
6. At night, I get loopy so I tend to get real strange at parties…which is why I NEVER DRINK!!
7. I’m in a club and it’s called PINK THUNDER!!
8. I’m so amazingly fake at work
9. I think that sex is only okay when you love somebody
10. I love hugs

NINE THINGS YOU DON’T LIKE
1. Showy, gaudy, people
2. When people constantly demand my attention and when everyone’s doin’ it at once
3. GOSSIP
4. The typical blonde streaked, squeaky voiced Asian girls who wear all black and have no personalities
5. RUDE people
6. CHINGY–’nuff said
7. When people try to discourage others from being themselves
8. Vulgar rap music, shitty country music, MOST pop music
9. Not having time for myself

EIGHT FAVORITE FOODS/DRINKS
1. My mom’s veggie soup
2. Mango fruit smoothies from Borders
3. Chick Fil A’s fries
4. Swedish pancakes
5. Waffles
6. Rice (laugh all you want, ALEX!)
7. Hershey’s chocolate bars
8. Cereal (a staple in my household)

SEVEN THINGS YOU WEAR DAILY
1. Bra
2. Undies
3. Jeans (which reminds me…I need to start wearing skirts more often)
4. Lotion
5. Sweet pea
6. Socks
7. my heart key necklace I got from NY

SIX THINGS THAT MAKE YOU HAPPY
1. Good conversation
2. Good food
3. A day dedicated to shopping
4. Photos
5. Getting enough sleep
6. Good company

FIVE FRIENDS
1. Huong
2. Shummy
3. Mello
4. Alex
5. Mimi

FOUR THINGS YOU TOUCH EVERYDAY
1. Toothbrush
2. Door knob
3. Bookbag
4. Cellie (aka BABY)

THREE MEMORIES (GOOD OR BAD)
1. Six Flags this past summer (good+bad)
2. Winnipeg – bonding with my favorite BUTCH Canadian women
3. Coming back from Winnipeg feeling missed :o) There’s no other feeling like feeling missed

TWO BAD TRAITS YOU HAVE
1. I spend too much
2. I’m easily blind sighted

ONE ULTIMATE WISH
1. To continue growing and evolving as a person…to gain strength in obstacles overcome.

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year 2009

WHAT I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS
1. a new movie – DVD
2. new sweater
3. a sorbet or bread maker
4. measuring cups for baking
5. “vegan brunch” by isa moskowitz
6. winter classes at willow street yoga
7. fuji film ISO 400 or higher
8. subscription to readymade or vegnews magazine
9. sheer teal tights from american apparel
10. VEGGIE BOOTY for obvious reasons

TWELVE GREAT MOVIES
1. rear window
2. der baader meinhof komplex
3. water
4. happy-go-lucky
5. raising victor vargas
6. shadow of a doubt
7. do the right thing
8. paper moon
9. ghostworld
10. away from home
11. going on 13
12. smile pinki

ELEVEN GOOD BANDS/ARTISTS
1. amel larrieux
2. daft punk
3. de la soul
4. zhane
5. john legend
6. outkast
7. the roots
8. cut copy
9. chromeo
10. michael jackson
11. alicia keys

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOU
1. optimistic
2. affectionate
3. self-reliant
4. considerate
5. hardworking
6. quirky
7. morning & night person (which can be pretty draining, folks…)
8. dedicated
9. foodie
10. avid cinema-goer

NINE THINGS YOU DON’T LIKE
1. too much gore in crappy films
2. flaky people
3. bigots (includes bible-thumpers, homophobes, and racists)
4. anti-progressive, excessively wealthy capitalists
5. lint
6. poor wireless bandwidth
7. old, lecherous men
8. when pretty clothes i see on the racks don’t fit me
9. visible thongs

EIGHT FAVORITE FOODS/DRINKS
1. veggie booty!
2. eggplant & peanut stew
3. fresh bread
4. peanut butter
5. ginger tea w/ lemon
6. jerk tofu
7. collard greens
8. pancakes

SEVEN THINGS YOU WEAR DAILY
1. undies
2. rings
3. tights
4. socks
5. bra
6. hairtie
7. attitude, BABY.

SIX THINGS THAT MAKE YOU HAPPY
1. good food
2. great company
3. films that make me cry and laugh just as much
4. loud music
5. SLEEP
6. my new internship

FIVE FRIENDS
1. they
2. know
3. who
4. they
5. are ❤

FOUR THINGS YOU TOUCH EVERYDAY
1. fridge, HAHA
2. my mobile
3. mp3 player
4. pen & paper

THREE MEMORIES (GOOD OR BAD) *i’ll go with most recently or this year
1. NYC w/ mello: no bed bugs, mice, or horrible snow storms. our most recent trip was pretty great.
2. cooking in the kitchen with my roomies
3. car rides with the brother :o)

TWO BAD TRAITS YOU HAVE
1. can be really critical, but i’m working on it, i swear.
2. controlling.

ONE ULTIMATE WISH
1. to have enough money and other such stability to move to NYC by next fall. right now it seems like a faraway notion, but i want it so bad.

stupid broads October 30, 2009

I already thought my roommate was a huge bore (he spends time doing Cartman & Borat impressions when he’s not dicking around on his Playstation 3), but when his girlfriend was over the other day and we were discussing jobs, she said she’d like to be a housewife.

Who aspires to be a housewife?!

Stupid broads, that’s who. I’ve always felt it was something you’d fall back on, not aspire to be. Her parents had the money to send her to a private institution for higher learning and she’s interested in being a housewife? Her folks should have thrown their money at a charity for the greater good of some other kid who wished to do more for their lives than “babysit the kids.” I am not saying it’s an easy job, but it requires little or no motivation to be something better.

I wanted to punch her in the face when she said that. Stupid broads…